Here’s to the present (and why I was much cooler as a child)

Here’s a funny thing.

I don’t know whether to laugh or cry about it.

The reason why everything have felt so effing hard is because of thoughts. There was really not much of external problems. It was my mind.

And so while I try to learn this new thing called “Don’t judge yourself”, I feel the need to judge myself a little bit for this. For me overthinking from the lava in the middle of the earth out to the next galaxy.

I miss the younger me. I was a much cooler kid when I was younger. I didn’t ask much for permission: whether it was society or people close to me. I didn’t ask so many confusing, deep questions about everything. I just did things. I didn’t care if I was good at it, if it was “meant to be” or anything. I just lived life.

So that’s one part of adulting that really has had me fooled: Trying to overcomplicate shit and be so “smart” and “reflective” over everything and making sure perfectionism has had it’s peak of it’s own.

I was excited about the future – not stressed about it. I didn’t stress about tests. I didn’t think about what path would lead to what. I just went ahead and did things.

I think for the past 2 years I’ve had more of a mess in my mind that I’ve had all through my teenager years. Yes. I was a pretty stable teenager. It’s as if puberty hit me mentally in my late teens/early 20’s.

I really don’t need to read any more motivational or inspirational books. Today I bought “The Power Of Now”. It’s supposed to give you insight into how not identify yourself with your thoughts, and become more aware of the present. To live in the present. All there is now is now. Not the future. Not the past.

When I study I get worried about my grades. And then my degree. And then my future. Fuck.

When I work on a project I would rather give into procrastination, I ask myself “Is this taking me towards my goal? Am I going to be happy with this when I’m 40?”

Sometimes, it can be nice to take a minute and reflect over certain things. To have some sort of goal or direction.

But if you’re going to live your life based on the future every single fucking second, you’re never going to enjoy the present. Because one day, the future will become present. And you won’t be able to focus. And the results will just get shittier in the future than if you actually focused on what you had in front of you right now. If you plan everything and are always going to make sure you’re always following what you had “planned”, you’ll never leave room for the exciting, hidden, uncertain things that are just waiting to give you a even better surprise.

So cheers: Here’s to the present.

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Monthly goals: July

Hey guys!

First of all: Thank you SO much for the support on my blog and new YouTube channel! Almost 1000 views on the blog today… I’m stoked!!

So, let’s make the first “Monthly goals” post on this blog! I looove writing down my goals, and the most fun part: Actually doing them. It can be scary to share your goals in front of the whole world (You know, in case they don’t happen. But that’s not an option, now is it?), but I think it can also be a huge motivation to actually do them. They can be both personal and work-related. Let’s go!

July – my goals:

  • Launch Career Material blog (check!)
  • Launch Career Material YouTube channel and the trailer (check!)
  • Work my first week as a social media manager for a very important campaign with Nordic Screens (almost done!)
  • Plan a video idea or two for the campaign to encourage young people in Norway to vote.
  • Upload at least 4 videos to my Norwegian channel
  • Plan and go to New York to film! (Halfway done! Ordered tickets today!)
  • Decide what elective courses to choose this fall for my new semester at college.
  • Create a study plan for the new semester.

First picture: At work today! When Ellen and I ordered a spontaneous trip to New York City! 2nd picture: On my way home from work. That watch is sponsored by the way.

When we ate sushi for dinner… And donuts.

What are your goals for this month? Tell me in the comments below! xoxo 

Exams & finals & stress

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Hi guys!

About 2-3 weeks left until the first exam for this semester… Yikes! These are the classes I’m enrolled in this year:

– Organizational behavior and leadership
– Finance
– Mathematics for economists
– Statistics for economists

Organizational behavior and leadership is the first one out. This is the subject I enjoy the most, considering it’s a psychology-subject about how we behave at work.  It’s more of a subject you read for rather than doing tasks (like math) to understand & to be good at the subject. The other ones are more math- and economy-related, and I have to say I enjoy more of the psychology- and law classes. I’ve always loved to read about interesting subjects, and especially write. Math and finance is OK I guess, but not what I enjoy the most.

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So I was kind of stressed because I realized I had waaaay too many pages left for my O.B.A.L. class, so I decided to sit down and make a plan. On this plan it says how many chapters I need to be through with with a due date. And I’ve actually managed to stick to it!

It’s written in Norwegian though, but if you would like me to make a post with tips on how to study for finals, study routine, how to catch up etc – let me know in the comments!

Your future is important

I just finished another episode of 13 reasons why. When people talk about the show, they usually talk about the kids in school. How they were mean and didn’t care. One thing I noticed more relatable were the teachers and adults. It made think about my time in school before attending college.

Choosing what high school to go to was hard for me. In Norway, choosing a high school is like college. They look at your grades. The schools has different “majors” like college, where you can choose between for example music, media, athletics or just a “plain one” where you got a specific selection of subjects to choose from. As long as all the “majors” have a specific amount of “plain” subjects like english and math for example, you can still choose to go a normal college, even if you didn’t attend the “plain” major (hopefully that made sense).

I had pretty good grades. I guess I could have attended almost any school I wanted. My parents wanted me to go this prestigious private school that had a really good reputation. Their friends kids went there, and their parents had a lot of good things to say about it. I applied just to have my options available, and got accepted into the school early. That was also the year with the most applicants the school had received.

I, on the other hand, wanted to go to a different school just to take a media “major”. I don’t really have to explain why, do I? I loved film, photography, writing, graphic design… All of it. The school I wanted to go to also had a good reputation, but the media major was easier to get into. A lot of unmotivated students apply for these types of majors, because they are “tired of school” and just wants to have fun in high school. That’s why some people told me to avoid it, but I didn’t really wanna listen.

I remember telling one of the counsellors in middle school about my dilemma. I didn’t know what to choose. She just shrugged her shoulders and said something like “You can attend any normal college after high school if you choose a media major”, as if it didn’t really matter what I chose. And that’s the “advice” I got. She didn’t ask me any questions. She didn’t ask about grades, what was important to me or anything. Maybe it’s just me who is very passionate about these kind of things and could talk to someone about why they chose their major for hours. But isn’t it the school counsellor job to help guide the students to make good choices in life? It’s just… She didn’t seem very passionate about her job, I guess.

Then – let’s skip to my senior year. I already had a career within the media business and pretty good grades, and had a plan for my “after high school”-life. I was ambitious and very excited about my plans. I remember sitting next to one of my teachers on one of the last days of high school, and she asked me what my plans were. When I told her I was going to both college and keep working on my career, she looked at me unsurely and said something like “Isn’t that a bit too much?” with a really monotone tone in her voice. You should have seen her face expression. She just looked at me so… Weirdly. And the way she said it – way to motivate your students, to say at least! Luckily that only made me more motivated to prove that I could do it, though.

This is one of the reasons to why being passionate (or at least like) your job is important – especially when you have such an impact! As a teacher your goal should be to motivate your students and make sure they have possibility to reach their fullest potential. I really liked my teachers in elementary school. I feel like they really saw me, and wanted to help me get better. They challenged me. One day I want to go back to my old hometown and thank them for setting such a great basis for me and my life. You could see that they really cared about their students.

I don’t regret choosing the media major, but I do wish a teacher would have helped me looking at what options were good for me. I guess I didn’t see how important it was for me to go to class with someone smarter than me. How much more safer I would feel. How I should be pushed to my greatest extend. Because later I did realize that I went to a school with class mates who didn’t really care that much about their grades (or media, for that matter), and I lost a lot of motivation to that. Luckily I met 3 amazing friends who had a good work ethic, but I don’t know what I would do if they had not end up in my class.

This is one of many reasons why Career Material is important to me. I want you to know and feel how important your future is. I want to inspire you every single day, and remind you how important your goals and potential are. How anything is possible if you just do something about it. I hope my blog posts, videos and myself just in general will make you get some good vibes about your future, and see your own potential. If I only can help one of you to do that, I’ve completed an important mission. It’s true though, what they say about life: You are your only limit. And you can’t rely on other people in your life. Please do know, that your future is important.

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Me (to the left) the first year of high school with my new high school bestie named Bea at an event with Bikbok. Good times, tho ❤️